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Fic title: "Wherein Jensen doesn’t really know what’s going on…"
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the_milky_way
Genre: RPS, College!AU
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 3.279
Warnings/Spoilers: none
Disclaimer: This story is fictional (not real, didn't happen). Not true in any way. I don't own anything.
Summary: Jensen isn't really sure what's going on. He might be in love. Josh mocks him for it and Mike is still an asshole.
Notes: This takes place after "Wherein Jared’s brain doesn’t shut up…" and I still blame it all onmatalinolukaret and hd_obsession.
Wherein Jensen doesn’t really know what’s going on
Jensen sits in the kitchen of Josh’s house, and no he won’t count out all the inhabitants of it because he thinks calling it Josh’s house or place is enough, at least in his head. He sits in the kitchen and tries to come up with something to cook. It’s his turn apparently and he doesn’t even live here.
He tries not to think too much about Jared. He doesn’t do much else these days. Jensen isn’t really sure what’s going on but it’s pretty obvious that it’s linked to Jared.
Jensen knows he should be thinking about grad school, about doing more interviews and looking for a place to stay next year. He is just glad that it’s break and not full on school days. He would actually freak out a little more if he had to deal with classes and Jared and Jared dealing with his classes, because he knows how much Jared sinks into schoolwork. Hour-long phone calls have taught him that much.
Jeff is at his own parent’s place, so is Jared after much talking and persuading from their mom’s and Jeff’s side that he needed to at least be home for some days during the break, which kind of sucks because Jensen is missing Jared something fierce.
It’s overwhelming how much Jensen misses him after only having spent two full days with him. Okay, so he counts the conversations over the phone as well and that makes it three months of knowing Jared.
Maybe they have been dating over the phone all that time. Jensen counts it anyway.
It physically hurts that Jared isn’t there and Jensen doesn’t know why that is. He doesn’t know why he reacts like that.
It’s sort of amazing and maybe a little scary how much Jared has managed to implant himself into Jensen’s mind, heart and consequently his life. Because really, there is no other reason but being close to Jared, and maybe the chance of getting into a really, awesomely good grad school, for Jensen to be here and considering to move here.
All that is happening fast, overwhelmingly so and Jensen has never really been of the spontaneous kind. He always needed a plan, for his life, his education, his… for everything.
Jared seems to have changed that outlook on life. Jensen has been impulsive and spontaneous. He isn’t regretting anything he has done since he got to know Jared. It sends him reeling every time he attempts to think about it.
It’s impossible to really grasp it right now.
All he knows is that he misses Jared. Despite the age gap, despite the fact that Jared is a super genius that outsmarts everyone and everything Jensen has ever known. Despite all the things that could go wrong, could happen, haven’t happened yet and are still so very unclear, there isn’t anything that Jensen’s wants more but Jared to be there.
It is really pathetic but Jensen refuses to listen to Mike or Josh, and he thinks he is allowed to be pathetic for a certain percentage of his life. Life is short and Jensen doesn’t plan on wasting it with listening to two douchebags who have no real idea what being in love means.
Well, okay maybe Josh does since he is sort of engaged, which Jensen hadn’t know until the previous evening. They still have to celebrate that and Jensen still has to mock Josh about it, it is his duty as a younger brother to rip Josh about actually getting rings and all. He will do that once he has talked his brain into thinking of something other than Jared.
So he is sitting on Josh’s kitchen and tries to cook a meal for his older brother who would basically eat anything and Mike, who would do the same only covered with every amount of ketchup present in the house. Jensen doesn’t even know why he tries to make an effort; Mike will only cover every decent taste in a red sauce made of something genetically enhanced that is not a tomato and tons of sugar.
He sighs and goes through the cupboards but comes up empty handed on things to use and also on ideas. He tries to think of something easy to make but when he comes across the box of Cheerio’s his mind goes back where it has been all day. Or where it has been since Jared has left the house. Well no, where it has been since Jared picked up the phone the first time.
To Jared.
Jensen is glad that he called Josh when he did. Jensen is also rather glad that it usually has to be him calling because Josh actually forgets about it as soon as he agrees to do it. This way Jensen had the chance to meet Jared. He is pretty sure that he would have done so sooner or later but then again it has been years that Josh moved in with Jared, Jeff and Mike and Jensen has never managed to meet Jared before.
The thing is Jensen can’t really stop thinking about Jared anymore.
Jensen has been mocked enough about it to know almost every kind of weakness he isn’t allowed to show in front of the trio infernale. Which consists of Josh, since his older brother is always the first one to be named when it comes to mocking Jensen, Mike, who might calls himself Jensen's frined and might actually have first place when it comes to the quality and level of the mocking, and finally Jeff, who is more for mocking Jared than Jensen since Jared is Jeff’s little brother and since Jensen can kick his ass.
Jensen isn’t exactly sure what’s going on since there has been no time to actually digest everything. But the second he saw Jared, all worked up and panicky over Jensen’s visit, Jensen knew there was something going on. Something big even. And yes Josh has used that information for merciless mocking.
So has Mike.
Mike, the asshole he is, has been trying to come up with even worse pranks than before because according to him Jensen deserves nothing but the best for being a love sick teenage girl. The paradox of this situation is that Jensen takes those pranks gladly since they mean Mike is leaving Jared alone.
Jensen thinks he has made it pretty clear what will happen if Mike pulls another stunt like the one with the room key and preventing Jared from finding shelter in his room. And Jared needs his time outs, needs them to sort his thoughts and actually tells his brain to shut up.
Jensen is kind of proud of himself that he is the reason for Jared to be less socially awkward and more outgoing then ever. Because once Jared starts he is a tornado that takes everyone and everything with him. Jensen loves it.
Jensen is pretty sure that he loves Jared as well.
It is scary and awesome and has him twisted around himself in insecurities and hopes and all the things that go through ones mind once he realises that he is head over heels for maybe the totally right person.
Josh doesn’t even mock him too much when Jensen just blurts that out the second Josh joins him in the kitchen.
Jensen still has no idea what to cook, but he might have drooled on Jared’s Cheerio’s.
***
Jensen and Josh are about to finish making chilli when Mike finally crawls out of his hole, also known as his room, and joins them. It’s after one in the afternoon but Jensen knows that when there is nothing to attend, may it be a lecture or a concert or a show in his favourite strip club, Mike doesn’t even think of leaving bed for anything but food.
“Yo girls. Food ready?”
Josh doesn’t even blink anymore and Jensen has known Mike long enough to not react anymore either. It’s easier for all of them. Even Jared, who sees the best in everyone, and Jensen means ‘everyone’, has given up on trying to get Mike or to correct him. There is no chance on earth that Mike Rosenbaum will ever be anything but politically incorrect.
Jensen has found a new sort of respect for his brother, his brother's best friends and his potential boyfriend during the last few days. Living with Mike really is a challenge only mastered by few.
Potential boyfriend though brings him up short and any thoughts about Mike sort of take a backseat. They don’t vanish since the person in questions tries to eat right of the pot and Jensen actually still has the presence of mind to whack him with the spoon he is holding.
Mike actually scowls but he doesn’t try it again.
So potential boyfriend. Yeah, that might actually be the one thought that has the ability to freak Jensen out. Like a lot.
He just has his instincts, several feelings, some of them which he doesn’t really want to analyze any further, and certain social conventions to rely on. Not that those social conventions are really all that helpful in his case since they sort of don’t like to see what he is doing right now.
Just thinking about it makes him sort of dizzy but happy at the same time. He is spending hours on the phone talking to only one person. He is constantly thinking about this one person, even dreams of them and when allowed rambles on endlessly about them to people Jensen usually tries to avoid or at least tries to not talk to about personal matters.
Jensen also has spend half a day, an entire evening and half a night mainly wrapped around and cuddled up to said person. The rest of the second day he has spend with Jared was sort of awkward due to three almost grown men watching their every move and Jared sort of knocking himself out while trying to show Jensen his collection of California seashells on the top board of the DVD shelf.
So Jensen doesn’t really know if that actually already qualifies him to think of Jared as his boyfriend. He does know though he misses Jared and that he hopes Jared will be back before Jensen has to go back to Dallas to sort things out there.
“God Jenny. You have already spent too much time with Paddywhack.”
Jensen looks up from the hypnotizing pot of bubbling chilli. It really looks sort of awesome. Jensen is hungry all of a sudden.
“Huh? Why? And don’t call me that.”
Mike just grins and Jensen knows his attempts of teaching Mike not to girlyfy him are fruitless as well. Yes, Jensen sort of doesn’t like his name when he is close to Mike.
“Dude, you are all broody and thinking right now. I can see the wheels turning in your head. Same way Jared is. And he actually hurts himself when he does that. So stop it man, nothing good can come out of thinking too much.”
Josh just snorts but then he goes on to agree with Mike and Jensen is momentarily mystified at what brought that rare occurrence on.
“Mike is right. Look at him, he thinks too much about the smallest things and we all know how dangerous that can be. Thinking too much isn’t good at all.”
Okay, Jensen is relieved that Josh doesn’t actually agree with Mike, or well does agree with Mike only to insult him. He just wished Josh wouldn’t have used a reminder of why it never is a good idea to get wasted and high with Mike Rosenbaum in attendance.
Yeah thinking about the smallest things of the universe can take up an entire night and lead to being arrested for public indecency while trying to prove that skin really is the largest organ of the human body. Jensen is just glad it wasn’t him being photographed at the station. Jensen still has no idea how they made if from atomic particles to skin and stripping though.
“Oh shut up Ackles.”
Both Josh and Jensen raise an eyebrow at Mike and Jensen is amazed how long it takes Mike to realise that his insult isn’t really working here. Especially after what happened the previous evening.
Yesterday, after another phone conversation with Jared, who seems to be missing Jensen just as much as Jensen is missing him, Jensen endured a lot of teasing and ripping for his apparently puke inducing loony grin he seems to be sporting these days, of course according to Mike. And really Jensen isn’t even trying to deny being totally gone for Jared. Not even when Josh actually asks him what he is feeling for Jared.
And that has to say a lot that Josh asks because usually Josh is the last one to realise what’s going with Jensen or in Jensen’s life. And for him to just come out and ask is an important moment in their brother-brother relationship.
Even if Mike crashes the moment by announcing that incest comes more and more into fashion these days and Jensen has to hold Josh back from actually strangling Mike. Mike looks reasonably scared and apologetic which Jensen thinks just serves him right.
Mike just huffs an annoyed sigh and digs into the bowl of chilli he finally scored from Josh. Jensen is too hungry and too hung up on Jared to even complain when Mike predictably reaches for the ketchup. Jensen doesn’t even want to know anyway.
***
Jensen doesn’t know why they are still hanging out in the kitchen when everything is clean and put away but neither Josh nor Mike move so Jensen stays put as well. He is only a guest after all and he always sort of feels weird being allowed to roam freely through the house. He rarely does it.
Jensen expects it when Mike actually fishes out the tequila and the lime from the fridge. Jensen has been waiting for something like this for days now. None of his visits so far have been gone by without at least one night of complete drunkenness.
What Jensen doesn’t expect though is Josh slapping him on the head when Jensen goes on whining about how much he misses Jared after only three days. Jensen just can’t shut up about it. He probably shouldn’t have started in the first place when Josh had asked. Would have saved him a trip to the shower and the necessity to change clothes before he even touched the alcohol.
Because Mike just goes on being Mike and actually pours half a container of milk over Jensen’s head for no apparent reason other than the fact that he can and that it momentarily shuts Jensen up.
***
They are through half the bottle of tequila, or rather Josh and Mike are since Jensen actually stopped after the second shot, he needs blackmail material on both of them anyway and doesn’t really feel like joining the happy group if inebriated two anyway, when something changes.
There is a shift in the room that has Mike turning a confused stare at the door pulling Josh with him who is unfortunate enough to being trapped in one of Mike’s drunken embraces. But Josh is too far gone to actually realise that not mention to complain about it. Josh just snuffles into Mike’s neck and sags against him.
Bonafide blackmail material if Jensen had a camera. And Jensen would laugh at the scene if he weren’t too occupied staring at the door, too.
Because really, can Jared read minds or something?
Jensen hopes Mike won’t ruin the moment and is about to say something when it’s too late already.
“Jay Jay. Jenny was soooooo miserable without you. Missed you so much. Good that you are here. No you can cons.. sum, consume, consummate your relationship. Jenny needs some good fucking, he is whiny as shit.”
Jensen knows he is as red as physically possible but so is Jared who is just gapping at Mike. Or maybe gapping at the picture of Mike and Josh all huddled together in the couch. Jensen is hoping for the later, it would make Mike’s words less embarrassing.
Jared shakes himself out of his stupor, looks at Jensen and grins. Grins all wide and happy and sure. A grin that Jensen hasn’t yet seen on Jared’s face and it’s sort of intriguing and really, really awesome to see… also very hot.
Sure of himself Jared is hot as hell. Jensen might be drooling again. He should be embarrassed about this sudden tendency but he solely blames Jared so all is good.
“Missed me much?”
Jensen smirks. On purpose because he likes the way Jared’s pupils dilate when he does it. It’s hot, too.
“Yeah. I guess.”
“Me.. uhm.. yeah, me, too.” Jared is back to stuttering but it’s not the insecure way but rather full of something else. Maybe arousal. Jensen sure hopes so.
“God, you two are freaks.”
It’s Jeff shoving Jared further into the room so that he can drop the bags he has been carrying. Jensen just raises an eyebrow and tries to ignore Mike and Josh on the couch discussing what kind of initials should be on Jared’s and his wedding invitations.
It’s rather hard to tune them out when both Josh and Mike get into a deep discussion whether Padackles or Jsquared are even options. Jensen has no idea what to say to that anyway. Jared just blushes even harder but sits down next to Jensen and it’s more of a reflex then anything that Jensen raises his arm and pulls Jared closer.
Jeff destroys Jensen’s happy reunion feelings when he drops down on Jensen’s other side, grabs the shot glass and downs Jensen’s last shot. The annoyed look he shoots Jared is more an act than real feeling but Jensen wants to know what’s going on.
“So?”
Jared smiles.
“So?”
Jeff snorts, gets himself another shot ready, slaps Mike’s hand away and downs it.
“Man Jared. Jensen wants to know why we are back so soon. And really is it so hard to tell him that you missed him so much that you went all mopey bitch that even mom had enough and actually sent you back here to be with your boyfriend?”
Jared actually chokes on the water he tries to drink and for the next minutes Jensen is busy patting Jared on the back and glaring at Jeff. For an older brother Jeff doesn’t really do much to guarantee Jared’s wellbeing.
Jensen pulls Jared close again once the coughing fit is over and just lets himself feel. He ignores everyone around him and solely focuses on Jared. It feels good to just sit here and have Jared close. It fills a gap he doesn’t know has been there.
It makes sense.
“Boyfriend huh?”
Jared just nods but smiles a little. It is rather cute.
“Okay.”
It is easy. It still makes sense and Jensen knows they’ll talk about it sooner or later. Right now he is just content to have Jared close and to not think about anything at all. He has been thinking a lot the last few days and he thinks he has fulfilled his quote of heavy thinking for a while.
“Dude, is that dried milk on your hair? Because it sort of looks like dried milk but it might be something else.. so uhm.. I am asking. Not assuming. Just asking.”
Jared shouldn't be so cute all flustered and embarrassed and trying to not freak out on Jensen.
Yes, Jensen is in love.
“Mike and a container of milk. Yes.”
Jared doesn’t get to say anything else because Jensen pulls him into their first kiss ever.
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Author:
the_milky_wayGenre: RPS, College!AU
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 3.279
Warnings/Spoilers: none
Disclaimer: This story is fictional (not real, didn't happen). Not true in any way. I don't own anything.
Summary: Jensen isn't really sure what's going on. He might be in love. Josh mocks him for it and Mike is still an asshole.
Notes: This takes place after "Wherein Jared’s brain doesn’t shut up…" and I still blame it all on
matalinolukaret and hd_obsession.Wherein Jensen doesn’t really know what’s going on
Jensen sits in the kitchen of Josh’s house, and no he won’t count out all the inhabitants of it because he thinks calling it Josh’s house or place is enough, at least in his head. He sits in the kitchen and tries to come up with something to cook. It’s his turn apparently and he doesn’t even live here.
He tries not to think too much about Jared. He doesn’t do much else these days. Jensen isn’t really sure what’s going on but it’s pretty obvious that it’s linked to Jared.
Jensen knows he should be thinking about grad school, about doing more interviews and looking for a place to stay next year. He is just glad that it’s break and not full on school days. He would actually freak out a little more if he had to deal with classes and Jared and Jared dealing with his classes, because he knows how much Jared sinks into schoolwork. Hour-long phone calls have taught him that much.
Jeff is at his own parent’s place, so is Jared after much talking and persuading from their mom’s and Jeff’s side that he needed to at least be home for some days during the break, which kind of sucks because Jensen is missing Jared something fierce.
It’s overwhelming how much Jensen misses him after only having spent two full days with him. Okay, so he counts the conversations over the phone as well and that makes it three months of knowing Jared.
Maybe they have been dating over the phone all that time. Jensen counts it anyway.
It physically hurts that Jared isn’t there and Jensen doesn’t know why that is. He doesn’t know why he reacts like that.
It’s sort of amazing and maybe a little scary how much Jared has managed to implant himself into Jensen’s mind, heart and consequently his life. Because really, there is no other reason but being close to Jared, and maybe the chance of getting into a really, awesomely good grad school, for Jensen to be here and considering to move here.
All that is happening fast, overwhelmingly so and Jensen has never really been of the spontaneous kind. He always needed a plan, for his life, his education, his… for everything.
Jared seems to have changed that outlook on life. Jensen has been impulsive and spontaneous. He isn’t regretting anything he has done since he got to know Jared. It sends him reeling every time he attempts to think about it.
It’s impossible to really grasp it right now.
All he knows is that he misses Jared. Despite the age gap, despite the fact that Jared is a super genius that outsmarts everyone and everything Jensen has ever known. Despite all the things that could go wrong, could happen, haven’t happened yet and are still so very unclear, there isn’t anything that Jensen’s wants more but Jared to be there.
It is really pathetic but Jensen refuses to listen to Mike or Josh, and he thinks he is allowed to be pathetic for a certain percentage of his life. Life is short and Jensen doesn’t plan on wasting it with listening to two douchebags who have no real idea what being in love means.
Well, okay maybe Josh does since he is sort of engaged, which Jensen hadn’t know until the previous evening. They still have to celebrate that and Jensen still has to mock Josh about it, it is his duty as a younger brother to rip Josh about actually getting rings and all. He will do that once he has talked his brain into thinking of something other than Jared.
So he is sitting on Josh’s kitchen and tries to cook a meal for his older brother who would basically eat anything and Mike, who would do the same only covered with every amount of ketchup present in the house. Jensen doesn’t even know why he tries to make an effort; Mike will only cover every decent taste in a red sauce made of something genetically enhanced that is not a tomato and tons of sugar.
He sighs and goes through the cupboards but comes up empty handed on things to use and also on ideas. He tries to think of something easy to make but when he comes across the box of Cheerio’s his mind goes back where it has been all day. Or where it has been since Jared has left the house. Well no, where it has been since Jared picked up the phone the first time.
To Jared.
Jensen is glad that he called Josh when he did. Jensen is also rather glad that it usually has to be him calling because Josh actually forgets about it as soon as he agrees to do it. This way Jensen had the chance to meet Jared. He is pretty sure that he would have done so sooner or later but then again it has been years that Josh moved in with Jared, Jeff and Mike and Jensen has never managed to meet Jared before.
The thing is Jensen can’t really stop thinking about Jared anymore.
Jensen has been mocked enough about it to know almost every kind of weakness he isn’t allowed to show in front of the trio infernale. Which consists of Josh, since his older brother is always the first one to be named when it comes to mocking Jensen, Mike, who might calls himself Jensen's frined and might actually have first place when it comes to the quality and level of the mocking, and finally Jeff, who is more for mocking Jared than Jensen since Jared is Jeff’s little brother and since Jensen can kick his ass.
Jensen isn’t exactly sure what’s going on since there has been no time to actually digest everything. But the second he saw Jared, all worked up and panicky over Jensen’s visit, Jensen knew there was something going on. Something big even. And yes Josh has used that information for merciless mocking.
So has Mike.
Mike, the asshole he is, has been trying to come up with even worse pranks than before because according to him Jensen deserves nothing but the best for being a love sick teenage girl. The paradox of this situation is that Jensen takes those pranks gladly since they mean Mike is leaving Jared alone.
Jensen thinks he has made it pretty clear what will happen if Mike pulls another stunt like the one with the room key and preventing Jared from finding shelter in his room. And Jared needs his time outs, needs them to sort his thoughts and actually tells his brain to shut up.
Jensen is kind of proud of himself that he is the reason for Jared to be less socially awkward and more outgoing then ever. Because once Jared starts he is a tornado that takes everyone and everything with him. Jensen loves it.
Jensen is pretty sure that he loves Jared as well.
It is scary and awesome and has him twisted around himself in insecurities and hopes and all the things that go through ones mind once he realises that he is head over heels for maybe the totally right person.
Josh doesn’t even mock him too much when Jensen just blurts that out the second Josh joins him in the kitchen.
Jensen still has no idea what to cook, but he might have drooled on Jared’s Cheerio’s.
***
Jensen and Josh are about to finish making chilli when Mike finally crawls out of his hole, also known as his room, and joins them. It’s after one in the afternoon but Jensen knows that when there is nothing to attend, may it be a lecture or a concert or a show in his favourite strip club, Mike doesn’t even think of leaving bed for anything but food.
“Yo girls. Food ready?”
Josh doesn’t even blink anymore and Jensen has known Mike long enough to not react anymore either. It’s easier for all of them. Even Jared, who sees the best in everyone, and Jensen means ‘everyone’, has given up on trying to get Mike or to correct him. There is no chance on earth that Mike Rosenbaum will ever be anything but politically incorrect.
Jensen has found a new sort of respect for his brother, his brother's best friends and his potential boyfriend during the last few days. Living with Mike really is a challenge only mastered by few.
Potential boyfriend though brings him up short and any thoughts about Mike sort of take a backseat. They don’t vanish since the person in questions tries to eat right of the pot and Jensen actually still has the presence of mind to whack him with the spoon he is holding.
Mike actually scowls but he doesn’t try it again.
So potential boyfriend. Yeah, that might actually be the one thought that has the ability to freak Jensen out. Like a lot.
He just has his instincts, several feelings, some of them which he doesn’t really want to analyze any further, and certain social conventions to rely on. Not that those social conventions are really all that helpful in his case since they sort of don’t like to see what he is doing right now.
Just thinking about it makes him sort of dizzy but happy at the same time. He is spending hours on the phone talking to only one person. He is constantly thinking about this one person, even dreams of them and when allowed rambles on endlessly about them to people Jensen usually tries to avoid or at least tries to not talk to about personal matters.
Jensen also has spend half a day, an entire evening and half a night mainly wrapped around and cuddled up to said person. The rest of the second day he has spend with Jared was sort of awkward due to three almost grown men watching their every move and Jared sort of knocking himself out while trying to show Jensen his collection of California seashells on the top board of the DVD shelf.
So Jensen doesn’t really know if that actually already qualifies him to think of Jared as his boyfriend. He does know though he misses Jared and that he hopes Jared will be back before Jensen has to go back to Dallas to sort things out there.
“God Jenny. You have already spent too much time with Paddywhack.”
Jensen looks up from the hypnotizing pot of bubbling chilli. It really looks sort of awesome. Jensen is hungry all of a sudden.
“Huh? Why? And don’t call me that.”
Mike just grins and Jensen knows his attempts of teaching Mike not to girlyfy him are fruitless as well. Yes, Jensen sort of doesn’t like his name when he is close to Mike.
“Dude, you are all broody and thinking right now. I can see the wheels turning in your head. Same way Jared is. And he actually hurts himself when he does that. So stop it man, nothing good can come out of thinking too much.”
Josh just snorts but then he goes on to agree with Mike and Jensen is momentarily mystified at what brought that rare occurrence on.
“Mike is right. Look at him, he thinks too much about the smallest things and we all know how dangerous that can be. Thinking too much isn’t good at all.”
Okay, Jensen is relieved that Josh doesn’t actually agree with Mike, or well does agree with Mike only to insult him. He just wished Josh wouldn’t have used a reminder of why it never is a good idea to get wasted and high with Mike Rosenbaum in attendance.
Yeah thinking about the smallest things of the universe can take up an entire night and lead to being arrested for public indecency while trying to prove that skin really is the largest organ of the human body. Jensen is just glad it wasn’t him being photographed at the station. Jensen still has no idea how they made if from atomic particles to skin and stripping though.
“Oh shut up Ackles.”
Both Josh and Jensen raise an eyebrow at Mike and Jensen is amazed how long it takes Mike to realise that his insult isn’t really working here. Especially after what happened the previous evening.
Yesterday, after another phone conversation with Jared, who seems to be missing Jensen just as much as Jensen is missing him, Jensen endured a lot of teasing and ripping for his apparently puke inducing loony grin he seems to be sporting these days, of course according to Mike. And really Jensen isn’t even trying to deny being totally gone for Jared. Not even when Josh actually asks him what he is feeling for Jared.
And that has to say a lot that Josh asks because usually Josh is the last one to realise what’s going with Jensen or in Jensen’s life. And for him to just come out and ask is an important moment in their brother-brother relationship.
Even if Mike crashes the moment by announcing that incest comes more and more into fashion these days and Jensen has to hold Josh back from actually strangling Mike. Mike looks reasonably scared and apologetic which Jensen thinks just serves him right.
Mike just huffs an annoyed sigh and digs into the bowl of chilli he finally scored from Josh. Jensen is too hungry and too hung up on Jared to even complain when Mike predictably reaches for the ketchup. Jensen doesn’t even want to know anyway.
***
Jensen doesn’t know why they are still hanging out in the kitchen when everything is clean and put away but neither Josh nor Mike move so Jensen stays put as well. He is only a guest after all and he always sort of feels weird being allowed to roam freely through the house. He rarely does it.
Jensen expects it when Mike actually fishes out the tequila and the lime from the fridge. Jensen has been waiting for something like this for days now. None of his visits so far have been gone by without at least one night of complete drunkenness.
What Jensen doesn’t expect though is Josh slapping him on the head when Jensen goes on whining about how much he misses Jared after only three days. Jensen just can’t shut up about it. He probably shouldn’t have started in the first place when Josh had asked. Would have saved him a trip to the shower and the necessity to change clothes before he even touched the alcohol.
Because Mike just goes on being Mike and actually pours half a container of milk over Jensen’s head for no apparent reason other than the fact that he can and that it momentarily shuts Jensen up.
***
They are through half the bottle of tequila, or rather Josh and Mike are since Jensen actually stopped after the second shot, he needs blackmail material on both of them anyway and doesn’t really feel like joining the happy group if inebriated two anyway, when something changes.
There is a shift in the room that has Mike turning a confused stare at the door pulling Josh with him who is unfortunate enough to being trapped in one of Mike’s drunken embraces. But Josh is too far gone to actually realise that not mention to complain about it. Josh just snuffles into Mike’s neck and sags against him.
Bonafide blackmail material if Jensen had a camera. And Jensen would laugh at the scene if he weren’t too occupied staring at the door, too.
Because really, can Jared read minds or something?
Jensen hopes Mike won’t ruin the moment and is about to say something when it’s too late already.
“Jay Jay. Jenny was soooooo miserable without you. Missed you so much. Good that you are here. No you can cons.. sum, consume, consummate your relationship. Jenny needs some good fucking, he is whiny as shit.”
Jensen knows he is as red as physically possible but so is Jared who is just gapping at Mike. Or maybe gapping at the picture of Mike and Josh all huddled together in the couch. Jensen is hoping for the later, it would make Mike’s words less embarrassing.
Jared shakes himself out of his stupor, looks at Jensen and grins. Grins all wide and happy and sure. A grin that Jensen hasn’t yet seen on Jared’s face and it’s sort of intriguing and really, really awesome to see… also very hot.
Sure of himself Jared is hot as hell. Jensen might be drooling again. He should be embarrassed about this sudden tendency but he solely blames Jared so all is good.
“Missed me much?”
Jensen smirks. On purpose because he likes the way Jared’s pupils dilate when he does it. It’s hot, too.
“Yeah. I guess.”
“Me.. uhm.. yeah, me, too.” Jared is back to stuttering but it’s not the insecure way but rather full of something else. Maybe arousal. Jensen sure hopes so.
“God, you two are freaks.”
It’s Jeff shoving Jared further into the room so that he can drop the bags he has been carrying. Jensen just raises an eyebrow and tries to ignore Mike and Josh on the couch discussing what kind of initials should be on Jared’s and his wedding invitations.
It’s rather hard to tune them out when both Josh and Mike get into a deep discussion whether Padackles or Jsquared are even options. Jensen has no idea what to say to that anyway. Jared just blushes even harder but sits down next to Jensen and it’s more of a reflex then anything that Jensen raises his arm and pulls Jared closer.
Jeff destroys Jensen’s happy reunion feelings when he drops down on Jensen’s other side, grabs the shot glass and downs Jensen’s last shot. The annoyed look he shoots Jared is more an act than real feeling but Jensen wants to know what’s going on.
“So?”
Jared smiles.
“So?”
Jeff snorts, gets himself another shot ready, slaps Mike’s hand away and downs it.
“Man Jared. Jensen wants to know why we are back so soon. And really is it so hard to tell him that you missed him so much that you went all mopey bitch that even mom had enough and actually sent you back here to be with your boyfriend?”
Jared actually chokes on the water he tries to drink and for the next minutes Jensen is busy patting Jared on the back and glaring at Jeff. For an older brother Jeff doesn’t really do much to guarantee Jared’s wellbeing.
Jensen pulls Jared close again once the coughing fit is over and just lets himself feel. He ignores everyone around him and solely focuses on Jared. It feels good to just sit here and have Jared close. It fills a gap he doesn’t know has been there.
It makes sense.
“Boyfriend huh?”
Jared just nods but smiles a little. It is rather cute.
“Okay.”
It is easy. It still makes sense and Jensen knows they’ll talk about it sooner or later. Right now he is just content to have Jared close and to not think about anything at all. He has been thinking a lot the last few days and he thinks he has fulfilled his quote of heavy thinking for a while.
“Dude, is that dried milk on your hair? Because it sort of looks like dried milk but it might be something else.. so uhm.. I am asking. Not assuming. Just asking.”
Jared shouldn't be so cute all flustered and embarrassed and trying to not freak out on Jensen.
Yes, Jensen is in love.
“Mike and a container of milk. Yes.”
Jared doesn’t get to say anything else because Jensen pulls him into their first kiss ever.
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